Smash the Mask

Donald Neale Walsh nailed it when he said: “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”.

Writing is my game yet comfort is my name. Time to stop focusing on the safe and tried and true, and get risky with my words.

The problem? I don’t even know what that would look like. What does a risky word have that a safe word doesn’t have? Whiskers? More than 2 eyes? Green ear lobes? A stretchy grin that covers yellow teeth?

But, here I am in my 60’s – gulp – and I would like to break out of my rut. Travel? Maybe. More time with friends? Perhaps. A different exercise program? I am considering it. What I really really want to do is to take risks with my writing. Put my writing out there. Put myself out there. Get out of my way.


I am terrified. I am terrified of being terrified. I am afraid of negative feedback. I’m afraid of criticism.

Since my return from Kenya 6 weeks ago I have been in transition. The question is to what and from what. But it has to do with breaking out of a comfort zone. Taking risks. Standing tall. Staring down the multi-eyed, green-lobed, whiskered, yellow teethed creature that looks like risk.

Self-doubt, self-criticism and fear have conspired to keep me small and mousy. I tell myself that I want bling in my world, but then I get afraid of that, too. What the heck? Am I destined to be the person I said I would never become? How do I give myself the kick I need to get myself moving in the direction that I want to go? How do I grapple with the mold that I have created?

That’s it….I want to break my own mold. Smash my mask. Re-program my thoughts. Give myself room to grow. Maybe sprout wings where my arms are now.

Fear of reprisal. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of rejection.

“Feel the fear and do it anyway.” Barbara Jeffers nailed it, too.

Life begins….when you let go of the fear.


8 thoughts on “Smash the Mask

  1. My favorite device to combat FEAR is remembering that it is nothing more than “Fantasized Experiences Appearing Real”. Perhaps the very same creativity that fuels your “reason for writing” is also inflaming your FEAR. Keep your creativity in your words which wonderfully motivate, energize and empower and play ‘keep away’ with your creativity regarding fear. Because today is a gift and called the present, my present to you and your creativity is to box your fear, wrap it in your imagination’s most lovely paper and store it high on a shelf to keep it out of sight.

    1. It’s all in your perspective, isn’t it? I guess it’s the yin and yang of creativity. Thanks for your very visual solution!

  2. Reblogged this on Taylor_Your_Career and commented:
    I have long admired your unique way with words, Janet. There is something extremely special about the way you pull them together into wonderfully descriptive ideas. I’m looking forward to following you new geezer journey.

  3. Fear! I feel I am in a similar place as you. Just shy of 55, I feel in many ways that I’m a late bloomer.

    Here’s to breaking out of the rut and banishing fear! Thank you for a great post 🙂

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